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第1章 喜欢自己更多一点（第2页）
Iwasstunned。Myfriendisintelligent，charming，andcomassionate—yetshecouldntseeanyofthat。
Iknowshesnotalone。Lowself-esteemhasbecomethenumber-oneissuelaguingwomen。DesiteGodsassurancethathesabsolutelycrazyaboutus，mostofuscantbelievehemeansus。Itslikethecynicaleditorwhotellsthecubreorter，
"Ifyourmothersaysshelovesyou，checkitout。
"
Iwasareorterfor12years。OneofthefirstthingsIlearnedinresearchingastorywas
"garbagein，garbageout
"。Ifyourrawdataisflawed，youenduwithafaultyconclusion。Thesameistruewithhowweseeourselves。Ifwelackself-confidence，maybewereworkingwithflaweddata。
Therealityis，inhundredsofsubtleways，ourculture，family，friends—evenourthoughtlife—consiretoundermineourconfidence。Wegrowuinfamiliesvoidofaffirmation，encouragement，andresect—thebuildingblockstoself-confidence。ThenwefindourselvessmackdabinthemiddleofaworldthatlionizesSizeTwoHollywoodstarletsandBarbie-dollfigures。Ouraycheck，ourtitle，orsomeotherartificialyardstickgivesustemoraryentreeintotheworldofTheAcceted。Butinourhearts，weknowitisntreal。Howdowefindourwaytothetruth？
Imtechnohobia。Mybrothergotallthegenesrequiredtounderstandoeratingmanuals，toreairthings，ortomakesenseofcomuters。WhenIfirsthadtolearnhowtouseacomuterformyjob，IwasconvinceditwastheendoflifeasIknewit。
Irememberwithainfulclarityabeginnerscomuterclasswheretheinstructortoldusto
"ressanykey
"。Isearchedinvainforthe
"any
"key。Bytheendoftheclass，IwascertainIwasntsmartenoughtodrivemyselfhome，muchlessdressforworkthenextday。ThiswasdesitethefactthatImanagedahome，afamily，ajob，andarofessionalstaff。
Whywasitsohumiliating？BecauseIcomaredmyselftothe10-year-oldgirlnextdoorwhoeffortlesslysurfedtheNettoresearchhertermaerswhileIstruggledjusttologon。Insteadofsimlyconcludingthattechnicalrowessisnotoneofmystrengths，IconcludedImustbestuid。Itwasalie。
Peoleresectusasmuchasweresectourselves。Thatswhytheabsenceofself-confidencecantelegrahtoothersnottobelieveinus。
ForyearsIstruggledtoreceiveacomlimentgraciously。Ifsomeonecomlimentedmyhair，Iddiscountit。Idsaymyhairstylemademyfacelookfatorthatmyhairwasamousycolor。WhatIreallymeantwas，theremustbesomemistake。Imnotworthyourregard。Idontlikemyselfandcantreallybelieveyoudo，either。Thetroubleis，ifweersistinuttingourselvesdown，eventuallyeolestarttobelievewereright。
Sometimestheroblemisntfaultydata。Wehaveanaccurateictureofourselvesorasituation，butwecaitulatethefirsttimesomeonechallengesus。
Severalyearsago，Idiscoveredagrae-sizedlumonmyleftbreast。Mydoctorscheduledoutatientsurgeryrightaway。Amonthlater，whenIresumederiodicself-examination，Ifeltthesameluminthesamehard-to-reachlace。Iwascertainofit！WhenIcalledthedoctortosuggesthemighthavemissedtheluminquestion，heinsistedIwaswrong。Itcouldnotossiblybealum，hesaid，becausehehadremovedit。Afterall，hewasthedoctor。
Igotoffthehone，doubtingwhatIdfeltwithmyownhand。Butfearoflethalconsequencesgavemethecouragetoinsisthere-examineme，atwhichointhereluctantlyacknowledgedthat，yes，itdidseemtobetheoriginallum。Heremoveditinasecondsurgery。
Inmycase，IhadtoconfessthatIwasstuidbecauseIdidntunderstandtechnicalthings。Yet，evenafteracknowledgingthatImactuallyarettyintelligenterson，Istillhadtogrievethefactthatnoamountofclassesortrainingwouldevercomletelysolvemytechnicalinetitude！
AnotherlieIbelievedaboutmyselfwasthatIdbeenselfishforhavingonlyonechild。Thetruthis，Inearlydiedgivingbirthtomydaughter，andmyhusbanddidntwanttoadot。Still，Isentyearsfeelinglikeaninferiormother—likeIshouldhavetrustedGodtorotectmeinsubsequentchildbirth。
Inowbelievethat—inmycase—onechildwasGodswillforme。Iverejectedthecondemnation。Nevertheless，IhadtogrievethatIdneverhavethehousefulofchildrenIdalwayswanted。
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